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You had the radiance of the sun.
But, I feared the worst.
I though... I though you would let me go.
You asked me not to go.
I promised.
Turns out you left me first, then I left you last.
Times on time again, anything would make you touchy,
And in spite of your actions, I tried to stay on.
I tried.

I guess I don't really know your side of the story.
No, I don't see any of it. It was only ever fragments.
A snippet there, a thrown out sentence there.
Only once in a while, it would get to the point I learned more.
I had no idea. Nothing made sense.
I was aware of your actions for a long time.
I choose to ignore them, searching in desperation...
For what the true answer really was.
I looked for lies in the truth.

It was really hard, you know? I don't think you know what I saw.
What I felt.
How I felt. You even told me yourself. I don't know.
I think we waited too long.
You were so beautiful to me. So perfect, I could never,
not once, get angry with you.
Now.. there is nothing but pain and disappointment.

I'm not going to lie. There was rage at first. Unshakable.
You did that a lot. My hands would shake, and I would be scared.
I couldn't hold still. I thought I hated you, but maybe it was me..
me just hating myself for not being able to control my emotions better.
Now I'm here, knowing that I'll post this somewhere you can actually find.
Written in some crap poetry form.

Back to you. I don't know you.
I haven't known you for a while now.
When you said our conversations were not important..
I wanted to disagree. I found them so. But they weren't important in that sense.
The trust sense of staying up and complaining at the world.
The trust sense of knowing that someone shared and understood your feelings.
That was gone.

I'm sorry I couldn't go back.
I couldn't just jump back and be perfect again, like the best friends we were.
Then we became friends. Plain and simple.
Now I can't even look at you with out feeling a knot.
It eats away and I'm dying to talk to you and apologize
A thousand times if need be.
But I always say sorry.
Everyday. To someone. I'm sorry.
And there's a point where sorry stops effecting.
You can say it once, twice.
But once it spills over, it means nothing.
I don't feel like I should say sorry.
Maybe you think different, I don't know.
But my voice is trapped in my throat, and I can't even say
All of it here. This is just a tip. How funny, the titanic sunk. Right?

Its been a month.
I don't know if we'll even exchange anything more than a thank you.
Or a hello.
Depending on what is needed.
I regret telling you to never talk to me.
I fucking hate it.
I hate knowing that it was me who finally walked away.
But I'm not going to take it back, because I always back up.
I guess
I had to stand up for something I believed in.
And it was in the knot of rage.
That has turned into pain and disappointment.

I guess there's no gods saving us now.

Just two humans.

With shattered differences.
Let go
J'aurais dû te lâcher plus tôt.

Hey. I know. I lied. I'm back for a second. You probably read it. I'm here for selfish reasons. I'm sorry.
Look at that, I apologized again.
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I thought, everything was swell.
The world, pretty as a bell,
Must you lie to me as well.

I heard, that there's anger to quell,
Hurry, we're caught under a spell.
I thought, everything was swell.

I know, that the world is a shell,
Empty, in their prison cell,
Must you lie to me as well.

Stand still, no one can yell,
Alone, in our tears and fears we dwell,
I thought, everything was swell.

Its done, what we only could foretell,
It has, become more than just hell,
Must you lie to me as well.

I thought, that the world was swell.
Stories, that we continuously retell,
Again, will it become final farewell,
Must you lie to me as well.
Villanelle
A villanelle that I wrote. I'm sorry, but this is probably one of the last things I'll be posting on this site, at least under this name.
I.. I have a lot of thing going on right now, for the past long while, I've been completely lacking in any creativity at all, and I think this is becasue of the depression that's slowly consuming my life. I'm sorry for all the things I've left on this site, I loved being a part of the community.
Have a nice one,
Wish.
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About time for me to edit my page....

Hello, first thing is first, names. I prefred to be called Wish, but Monique or Seraika is fine, (even though I've been told repeatidly that it doesn't fit me..) My dream job to be an author, however that might happen- I did't really learn grammer in grade school. (cries) You'll find that I'm not much of a fashion fan, my ratty old gray jacket with holes in the sleeves is fine when I'm wearing jeans (which I always do,) and until my recent math review, (March 2012) I had no idea what the NFL was.
I'm not much of a worker, and I day dream about the impossible, (who doesn't?) Yes, like so many out there, I read anime and manga, (favoirite anime- One Piece, manga- Record of a Fallen Vampire [read it!]tied with 1/2 Prince and One Piece...) though I don't draw them well... *shrugs* I enjoy talking to people, do please do send a note or something! I wouldn't mind.
I don't own a Facebook, or anything of the like, only DA, so please don't ask....
Hm.. Llama policy- you give one, I'll give one back. Simple.. If you thank me, I'll thank you too.
Favoites- You're welcome. If you feel it necessary, say thanks. I'll reply.
I mostly write poetry, I don't have the time for a flow blown story...(Which explains the beginnings, but that's all.)
One more thing...

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Favourite style of art: manga
Personal Quote: What boredom can do.
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Just a quick note.
I don't know if I will be returning to this site.
As of yet, I do not see myself doing so........ just of how things are.
Maybe I will, I don't know.
I'll leave it up in case I do decide to venture back here again.
It was nice meeting you all.

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